God gave me a few points to look at. If, I say I am living my life for God, how crazy do I look talking bout a man all the time? If, I say I am busy doing God's plan why do I put energy into trying to get noticed. Come on for real! How can I be true to God's plan for my life if I so focused on something else. I mean I was so focused I was consumed by it. Honestly, you can't do both.
God knows the desires of my heart. He gave me those desires. But what He wants from me is to work His plan. If I work His plan everything else will come. I had to really get this thing together. I mean really. I had to be real with myself and really put God first. I had to let go of my selfish needs. In order, to do what I came here for. This is not about me it is about God.
God is the head of my life. He leads me and keeps. I have to honor Him. I have to honor Him with my time and energy. Otherwise, when I get the man I will put him ahead of God. I am not putting no man ahead of God. My relationship with God is the most important relationship I have. If, I don't have Him I don't have anything.
I said all that to say. Stop acting like your living for God. But what you're really doing is half living for God and half living to get a man. Give your all to God and He will fulfill all your desires.